Wednesday, October 24, 2012

My Primary Schoolmate, William Foo’s Wedding @ 14/10/2012

Attended to my primary 6M schoolmate, William Foo’s wedding dinner at Ah Yat Abalone Seafood Restaurant 阿一鲍鱼海鲜酒家, Live Centre, KL last weekend.

William was a fatty classmate and also school bus mate of mine who I still keep in touch with since we graduated ages ago. I can still clearly remember that we both used to fight and argue in bus when we were in primary 6 because his brother always bullies my sister in the bus. William was of a bigger body build and I was just a skinny girl, but to my surprise, I’m always the winner of all the fights / arguments. Until… William can even remember that I bite him before in one of our fight. Perhaps, this is just exactly what the Chinese said “no fight no knew ( 不打不相识 )” where we then turn to good friend in later days. Oh gosh~ I’m getting old recalling those old schooldays stories duh… Adding to that, I also found out that William is also a good friend of my childhood neighbor, CheeKin a day before his wedding when we gathered at his bachelor night meet up. Also thank to that, I got a free ride from my good neighbor to the dinner. Hehe… : P


Back to the wedding, William did an extraordinary wedding intro projecting his Bersih 3.0 videos clips compilation that got majority of attendees buy-in. It was lucky that I didn’t wore my yellow dress when William told me the theme of the night is yellow a night before. Phew~ Oya, William is one of the key voluntary lawyer in Bersih 3.0 and that is why the floor has given him a round of applause after the projected video clips end. As part of disclaimer, those projected video clips have nothing to do with the wedding reception of the night.

Overall, we had a good primary gathering on that night having old schoolmates around the table. We shared and catch up with each other updating our current happenings. It was indeed a happy get together time thanks to William’s wedding reception. Wish you both a wonderful marriage, William & Agnes.


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

是心有灵犀, 还是...? @ 13/10/2012

自他离开以后, 我再也没有他的消息... 唯一... 也只有那么唯一的一次, 可能是他年头批量发出的一个普通 WhatsApp 新年短讯而已. 其实我也不能确定是不是他, 只不过是妹妹后来查得电话国家代码来自肯雅而估计是他而已... 我并没有回复, 因为他并没有告知过我他在国外的手电联络, 而且我也该知道... 自他义无反顾地归还所有我和他的一切时, 他的目的就是势必要和我决裂, 恩断义绝, 断绝来往, 完全将我遗弃... 而那一则短讯, 或许也是他在误打误撞之下错发给我罢了. 自此我再也没有翻查他的 WhatsApp 帐号或收到他的任何讯息了.

不知道是心有灵犀, 还是那强烈的第六感... 打从中秋节东窗事件起, 心里总是有一种不明的感觉. 在好奇心的驱逐下, 我点击查看了他的 WhatsApp 帐号. 这一击, 意外发现他从10月初开始就再也没有登入过肯雅手电联系的 WhatsApp 帐号... 反而登入了他大马手电联系的 WhatsApp 帐号和惊讶地更新了资料图片. 他... 以往都不从理会也从不更新资料图片, 可是却在她的出现下改变了.

原来, 我心里的那一种不明感觉与不安... 是... 他回来了... 回来和他的她共同生活. 直觉告诉我, 这可能是个多半接近事实的感应. 他现已找回 / 找到他的另一个对象, 令他这只远飞的小鸟归巢, 担戴承诺... 只不过, 那不再是我... 不再是他当初对我一生一世的承诺... 惟有我心悲切~ </3

无独有偶的是... 我发现原来冥冥中我每一会的不安, 每一会的心痛, 每一会的落泪, 都竟然与他有关, 远远地被他牵引着... 难道他就是传说中, 我遗失了的另一半肋骨吗? 如果是, 为何我们会分离? 如果不是, 为何我会有所感应? 还是, 这只不过是如有雷同, 纯属巧合? 看罢, 也就只有祂才懂了...

Thursday, October 11, 2012

I'll Back Off, So U Can Live Better @ 8/10/2012

Saw this [ I'll Back Off, So U Can Live Better ] post in sweetie SH’s blog today…

It was the lyrics of a Korean song which I don’t know what the song’s title is but I do felt the pain when I read it through. Towards the end of the song / lyrics, I found the same naïve thought and forever unanswerable questions that I’ve in my mind or asked myself before and still… as of todate.


……
(You) were the reason for my life
(You) were all I wanted
(You) were the only person I looked at

(Why) are you leaving me
(Why) are you abandoning me
If it was going to end like this, why did you love me?

Maybe one day you will remember the day we first met
I still remember the promise you made
That you adore me, protect me, and only love me
I believed you. I believed those lies. I believed them all.
……

I’m still broken…~

Friday, October 5, 2012

八月十五泪中秋... @ 30/9/2012

时光飞逝... 转眼间又到中秋时节了~ 跟去年一样, 今年的中秋还是一个人地过... 原以为可以就这样过一个平淡的佳节, 可是一大早却让我从面子书上发现他和她一同挽腰出席友人七月旬婚礼的合照. 我... 瞬间崩溃... 我讨厌自己, 讨厌为何自己竟然会相信他是因为比较习惯一个人, 真的想独自一个人生活而离弃我, 更讨厌的是... 为何自己在超过440个的日子之后, 依然还深爱着他, 还牵挂着他, 还惦记着他, 还是不能放下他, 不能忘记他... 我, 那不由自主的落泪病也因此又再发作了. 原来这些日子以来, 真正孤独一个人生活的... 是我~

八月十五月圆日, 伤心无奈泪中秋;
疲累渡日两个秋, 思念依然在远方;
昔日所言实为谎, 原来早已另作伴;
只恨当初太天真, 痴心错付负心人...