My Stress Test @ 28/3/2007

Today, I steal a little bit of my office hour and did my stress test with a software bought by 1 of our Executive Director when he did his stress management program which cost about RM 60K in oversea… Result? Bad… : (

Ever since I transferred department, I started to feel stress… especially after my very 1st road show in mid of February cause I’ve been assigned 2 major tasks for SPSB Group. Yes, it’s a group wise project by stages… 1 of it is to brings in X% of sales revenue for the group through 1 of the project which I should get it done by mid of the year and I still did nothing till date… : (

I also noticed that I’m getting more and more moody + emotional from then… I don’t feel like wanted to talk to anyone after work even to Alv… Its sort of like taking of a heavy mask after office hour everyday… where I need a complete silent and rest to reset my mind back to own frequency before I could start reveal my feeling... May be because of this where we didn’t really share our thought and feelings since mid of Feb / may be since beginning of the year, all this has caused misunderstandings between us…… I think I’m really tensed and stressed as resulted… :

At nite, Grant came to my little house to see if he could help me to fix the leaking water pipe. After examine for a while, we found that the only repairing tool that he brought + tools which I found from storeroom wasn’t able to repair so… What’s next? We end up spared some time for chatting before he leaves.

Note:~ A non-stressed / stress manageable person should have zero / less Low Coherence Ratio ( Red ), average Medium Coherence Ratio ( Blue ) and more of High Coherence Ratio ( Green ) stress chart which is exactly the opposite order of mine... :

Lost of Surprises @ 26/3/2007

My 5 little baby molly fishes has been dying 1 by 1 slowly… Don’t know why… they just can’t survive normally… I can still remembered that my last batch of 20+ baby mollies were all death… This round, the only black baby molly that I have has also dead… sob sob sob… : ( Now, I only left a yellow baby molly fish with black speckle…

Calvin Takakunisan’s Return @ 25/3/2007

Joint Nixon, Mich + Colbert, Long + Joey, Jeff for a dim sum breakfast today in conjunction of Calvin’s return to home ground… and we also had a short gathering chat with dessert being served by Joey at Long’s house after the breakfast.

Cleanse my little house later in the evening… guess what… I've already re-injured my right wrist again 2 days ago while I try to clean the toilet bowl which full of cement after the toilet rectification work…. And today, I accidently injured my left hand also while I clean the toilet again… now both my hands are swollen and painful… : (

Busy Work, Work & Work… @ 23/3/2007

Went to office late today cause I took few hours off to get my bathroom fixed. The contractors came on time and resealed my bathroom to prevent further ground water leakage to unit below. At the same time, they also changed my sink piping cause it was a slight leakage. However, I found that it is getting worst and more water is dripping down when I re-open the main water supply after a day of work. : S

Other than that, was busy as usual… and only able to check and write a short reply to Alv’s email in late nite… : (

A Long Awaited Day… @ 19/3/2007

The long awaited video marketing handled by Alv is finally live…: D I’ve been with him when he took few of those scenes… I can still remember how tough he gets this done and I truly understand all the hard work that he had put in… It’s really touched my heart cause I felt the same sorrow that he had went thru and I’m really proud of him when I first watched this video marketing clip… But he is not by my side to share this... T.T

“I may be naïve or may be too simple minded, but I’m living in my dream… because someone cares, for my today and our tomorrow…” ~ Setia Alam, as for me… Alv ~

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My Special Fren, Grant’s Wedding @ 18/3/2007

Attended to my ex-bf, Grant’s wedding dinner today... When I was first being invited back in Jan, the feeling is so “odd”, it is just like hearing an extremely good news from a very very close + special pal… Of which I laughed and felt the same excitement + enjoyment + happiness from the bottom of my heart, though it does reminds me about our past... again… Luckily, you need not to wait till I find my other half / soul / life partner… : )

Really happy to see that he has finally found his other half till the wedding bells ring… No doubt I have to also admit, his wife is much prettier than me... As for me, we are still compatible, good and close friend of course... : D

To my dearest Grant, you are now a husband to someone special in your life… Keep up your heart like the way we appreciate each others as soul mate… Appreciate your other half with all your heart, treasure your loved one and love her for willing to spend her future and remaining life with you… Don’t never ever try to hurt her or make her cry like me before…

Congratulates and best wishes to you and your loved one… My special “fren” whom shared part of my life journey before… : )